~At times i find myself sitting in a crowded area.
On a bus, In a class.
And all of a sudden i feel a smile on my face and i realise im smiling like a retard.
All because i was thinking of you.~

Only kings can afford to fly.

Some days. I watch those people flying from buildings.
As the windows pass. Do they start to cry?
I wonder what it would be like.
To fall
From a height so grand.
Would you feel free?
Or would you feel helpless?
To know that nothing after this will follow.
I think
Would be liberating.

Its not my head. Its the other one.

Im not willing to hurt you again.
But im not sure whether or not i can pretend that its all ok.
I want you to know how it is still there and it hurts.
But that will hurt you.
Perhaps, I can wait till im out of here.
Or perhaps i will cave when i see you next.
Why did i let this happen
Why didnt i see this happening before my eyes.
And now i cant stop it anymore.
I dont know who its hurting anymore.

Is it in my head or my heart?
Im afraid it may be the latter.
Im afraid of saying anything.
Im afraid of the outcome being the same.
Im afraid that the signs arent clear enough.
And im afraid that im Wrong

Without the life you had given.
What flows through these veins?
I dont want to change the world.
I just want to change your mind.

Grand Funk Railroad

I really love this band
and basically
thats it.

re·place (r-pls)
tr.v. re·placed, re·plac·ing, re·plac·es
1. To put back into a former position or place.
2. To take or fill the place of.
3. To be or provide a substitute for.

Do you ever feel like your being replaced?
I feel like that right now.
By someone who i thought was/is my friend.
Or maybe im just jealous.
Or paranoid.
I do not know.
I just feel like im slipping from where i was.
Or. Maybe being pulled from where i was.

attacking robotic unicorns ftw..

ok so basically this is just a post to display my utmost approval of the single greatest thing i have ever found on the internet...

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*twitches*

Untitled.

I thought it would be easy to just agree with what you said.
and get on with it you know.
But this is hard.
To deny what i know is still there.
And hasnt moved.
It feels stronger with everyday.
That lie still stands, and it will until i leave.
And that hurts.
Quite abit actually.
Like you wouldnt believe.
Its a lie to keep us apart, And a lie to keep us together.
So, Tell me.
Which one hurts more?

This pain will bring me to my knees.

Do you know what its like to see the strongest person you know, break down? I saw that today, And i will never forget it. Its riping me apart. As he fought back the tears he said to me. Adam im sorry, im so sorry, i did everything i could to stop it, im so sorry.

You had no need to apologise
You did everything you could to save her pop
you did nothing wrong
you did everything right
There was nothing you could have done

I cant believe how desolate i feel.
I just want to feel
And to cry
And to hug my pop. And hold onto him and tell him that everything will be ok. And that im here, and always will be. For anything he needs.

XxxX

Don't tell me it's over just yet
Because when you said you would be here forever
I figured that bought us some time
But time past through us

R.I.P I will always love you. You were the greatest nana i could have asked for. And the most kind, caring and sympathetic little old lady i had ever met.
Dont worry. I will look after pop.

Much love. And goodbye nana. Ill miss you forever.

My heart beats for it.

Even though its all said
And done. Finished.
Im afraid i will slip.
Back to where i was before,
So afraid to fall again.
Or.
Am i afraid to let go?
...
Hmmm.

The love that lasts the longest is the love that is never returned.

Contemplation often makes life miserable. We should act more, think less, and stop watching ourselves live

Its always raining in my head

How do you tell someone
How you feel.
How can you put such a strong emotion into words?
You cant write it.
You cant speak it.
Only feel it.

If i told you that everytime i see you
I get butterflies.
It wouldnt be the same
It wouldnt sound right
And everytime i hear you.
My heart lights up
Everytime you smile
Everything seems ok
No problems
Everything just drifts away. Into darkness, Never to bother me again.

It doesnt help that these feelings arent going away fast enough
I didnt ask for this
I didnt expect this
It hit me like a train
You walked into my life
I wasnt looking

But im glad i found you
And i can feel it all...
See it all slipping away
I dont want it to.
You dont want it to
I want you to stay, With me
One way or another.

Words mean nothing
But this is all i can think about.
And how much i am hurting you.

I am so sorry for all the bullshit you have had to go through

and now.
my head is filled with words that are raining and i cant form a complete sentence.
There is more but i cannot write.

...

DnM's. MnM's...
Its all the same to a fat kid.

From here. The sun rises on the blade of a knife

It may seem at last, days passing mean nothing
But the sun that sets cause only pain
Violence in words, like slashes, wound deeply
Love is not when you feel only pain

Without a deity i have no where to turn. I just want one thing to go right. One fucking thing. People say that without a god my life is meaningless. I choose to find meaning through myself and another person. I need no greater power to look to when the shit hits the fan. But still. I need saving. So what are you waiting for. Come fucking save me or forsake me and let me die.

Carrion - Parkway Drive

Because Lyrics speak louder than anything i could type here.

Carrion
In a moment I'm lost
Dying from the inside
Her eyes take me away
Tear me apart from the inside out
Dead eyes speak in volumes?
But our lips refuse to move
Could this ever be the last time?
The final time that we see this road
Give me the strength to return
Return the breath you've stolen
Give me the means to reset
Reset
Her heart I've broken again
Reflections built up on sorrow
We're walking the darkest road
Within chests carved with regret
In a moment I've lost
Dying from the inside
Her eyes take me away
Tear me apart from the inside out
Oh
From the inside out
The inside out
We've been running blind
Now we're falling through the cracks
We are falling
We are running blind
Now we're falling
Falling through the cracks
Into the world of the dead
Her shining eyes
Her shining eyes
Her shining eyes mark our return
Back to the world of the dead
In a moment I'm lost
Dying from the inside
Her eyes take me away
Tear me apart from the inside out
My love I lost
My heart I've lost
With no promise to return
No promise of return

Its stuff like this in my head that makes me feel strange

And the ashes will fall to earth and you will be blown away as your empire is brought to its knees and executed for the world; to know fear yours must first know pain

Chaos theory?

It has been said that something so small as a flutter from a butterfly's wing can ultimately cause a typhoon halfway around the world.

Where do these words come from?

I think people should decide for themselves how they feel. In the end, It will be your feelings that should decide what to do. Advice is great, but you should never take advice over what you actually feel...

This song by spineshank is a perfect portrayal of the message im trying to put across

"Don't wanna see, Don't wanna think, Don't wanna speak for yourself"

Its a war for freedom

You fight for yourselves. Your petty prize. That you hide behind independance. You kill for a better life. Why? whats not to say another person would do the same to you and claim its for independance. What the fuck is wrong with this world. You continue to put holes in some ones land for oil? For a price which will never be repayed. Vengance is stronger than anything you can buy. No amount of bombs will stop anger. It will only reinforce it. Just stop for once. Take a look around. Be content with what you have, For once. Independance cannot be won through any war. Independance is a state of mind.

Breakdown in the key of happy

Words are so very unnecesary.
Because when im with you.
Your eyes say it all.