Hey baby, here's that song you wanted.

Recently got my hands on Blessthefall's latest album 'Witness'
Its pretty freaking amazing

Today i was reading through a book of my thoughts, and i flipped to a page from 2008, there was a blood stain and words violently scratched in with pen.
those words read:
"i hate myself and i wish it would end"
i know where that blood came from
but i do not know the origin of the words.
I sat there in thought for 5 minutes, then tore the page out and burnt it.
Things are looking up now that i have found you.
Thankyou for saving me.

Out of everyone i know. You are the only one that isnt talking at me

I never thought this could run as deep as it does.
Through my veins straight to my heart.
Each word you speak and every breath i take it grows in me.

You know.
Right now.
I just realised
exactly how much you screwed me up.
I dont understand why i didnt listen to everyone telling me you are a bitch.
I was stupid to think there was some good in you.
But now i realise all the complexes i am having because of all your bullshit,
im glad that i can see the truth, and im even happier ive found someone better.

We are all living in a dreamscape. Its now time for us all to wake the F**k up see the light and realise the truth isnt as pretty as it seems.

Looking back at the past. I regret nothing.
I realise that i cant Change it, and i know i can tell you where to go in future.

An early thought for the day ahead.

Im talking to you. And i love that i look at the clock, and its 12 am

Then 5 minutes later. Its 1 am.

Today i saw you a little bit upset.
It hurt me inside to see that smile wiped from your face.
That beautiful smile that reaches inside me.
And wrenches my soul back to reality.
It was gone.
So much emotion in those eyes.
I didnt know what to do.
So, i tired to make you happy.
And, in the end, seeing you smile again.
It blew me away.

It made my day...

... Again.

Nineteen84

War Is Peace
Freedom Is Slavery
Ignorance Is Strength

If i said i wanted to hold you.
what would you say?
If i said i wanted to put my arms around your waist.
What would you say?
If i said, i wanted to press my lips to yours.
What would you say
If i tried to say how i feel.
But nothing came out.
Would you say it for me?

More. Words for her,

Knowing you has only helped it manifest inside of me
Getting closer has only made it stronger.
With every breath i exhale.
With every step i take.
I fall for you.
Further and further i fall.
And, im not afraid of how far i go.
I dont want to come back from this.
It feels too good.

Words for her.

No words can describe what i feel about her.
No matter how hard i try.
No matter how many things i say.
No matter how many times i try to show her.
No matter how many ways i try.
I will never feel like ive said it all.

One day i could wake up dead.
Atleast i'll know that i spoke to you last.

Each and every day, I long for that hug at the end of the day.
~And each and every day, I never want it to end.

i dont know why, but i feel like you dont want to talk anymore. I feel over shadowed and i just want to get out of your way. I dont know whats wrong or why. I just feel helpless, the truth invades my thoughts and i know deep down that i will get no further, but i still try and i dont know why. I wish i wouldnt,I wish you would say something. I feel like i annoy you, but you would never tell me if i did.
but
its probably just me again.
I wish i could convince myself it was me.

Seriously hanging out for Parkway Drives new album
here is theyre latest vid for their pre-release track. Sleepwalker

...It has been said. She can pull the tears from the skies.

With knives in hand we stab at the sands of time To turn back and unwind.

I am drowning in a pool of my own thoughts.

You are.
The hole in my head.
That was left by the bullet.
That free'd my mind.
From hopeless insecurities.

Here We Stand - Amber Pacific

I really love this song. I think you should listen to it. i picked a video with lyrics just incase there are people wanting them.
Beautiful song, and i bet im not the only one thinking of someone while listening to it.

...Black Gives Way To Blue

The past few days i have been listening to the latest Alice In Chains album. And. I am quite dissapointed in it. And the band, that is quite hard to say, because being my favourite band i idolise them. But, even though i think the album could have been better, I think William has done a fantastic job filling Layne's shoes, however no one will ever amount to the man himself. Never the less, listening to it 32 times in a row has made me see flaws in the music, and pointless, disgraceful attempts to replace Layne's uniqueness. I think that dissapoints me the most.

Set your sights on the horizon, reach for the sky, and be consumed by time as it eats us alive.

.. and now i bet you regret it.

I have been thinking lately, about all the things you had done to me, and all the people that dont like you. I feel sorry for you. Im glad i got out, but i regret you being stupid and stuck up about it. And i know you realise what you missed out on, and it makes me smile.
I hate to see even you alone, without anyone who actually likes you. And i think. Over all, that makes me the mature one.