Its always raining in my head

How do you tell someone
How you feel.
How can you put such a strong emotion into words?
You cant write it.
You cant speak it.
Only feel it.

If i told you that everytime i see you
I get butterflies.
It wouldnt be the same
It wouldnt sound right
And everytime i hear you.
My heart lights up
Everytime you smile
Everything seems ok
No problems
Everything just drifts away. Into darkness, Never to bother me again.

It doesnt help that these feelings arent going away fast enough
I didnt ask for this
I didnt expect this
It hit me like a train
You walked into my life
I wasnt looking

But im glad i found you
And i can feel it all...
See it all slipping away
I dont want it to.
You dont want it to
I want you to stay, With me
One way or another.

Words mean nothing
But this is all i can think about.
And how much i am hurting you.

I am so sorry for all the bullshit you have had to go through

and now.
my head is filled with words that are raining and i cant form a complete sentence.
There is more but i cannot write.